Food for Thought

i've seen this question in several variations on Facebook for the past several years......and it always makes me wonder.

 i'm not sure that i am, right now, the woman my little girl self would have wanted to become.  there are aspects of who i am now, that i  would have wanted to be.....the tender hearted me, the one who feels it is better to give than to receive, the one who still is such a mama bear.....only now, it not only includes my children, but my grandchildren as well.   the one who is still a bit of a  wanderlust, hippie, who dances to my own drum...who loves a good song and beat.....and the one who, because of our grands, has grown immensely in understanding that everyone is different......and we all need and require understanding and awareness of those differences.   i am so so thankful for that part of me.....and i think that the little girl i was would love that too. i know she would love the journey i have taken as a mom with our 5 amazing daughters and the soul mate i share life with......and what those experiences have made me through all these years.

 i think there are things that have been a part of my life, at one time, and have faded into the business that we allow to take over.... things i believe the little girl i was, would appreciate the value of....and what adding them again, would bring to who i am. 

things i would like  to add more of:  more time in nature, PLAY MORE, worry less, be adventurous ,be spontaneous, listen more...talk less,  laugh and dance more, be more present, smile more, be less concerned with rules and what is "expected", fear less, breathe more, celebrate every day, slow life down, let go.

i know, that certain circumstances in my/our lives, have made me who i am....and required threads to be woven into this tapestry that might not have been my choice.....however, life happens because ""No person gets to choose what challenges they will face in life. Everyone gets to choose how they will approach those challenges."  So.....i may not be  who the child i once was would have pictured, but i think she would like the person i am.....and the person i am working on becoming.......and that works for me.

thankful for our way of life...way back then.

I had the chance, today, to watch some old "home movies" from way back when......from before our first baby was born....to several years after.  I was so happy to "feel" these moments again....the free spirit i exuded, the "hands-off' mothering i embraced once our first little joined us.....and just the adventurous spirit we lived with.......i love the photography....the barefoot, free, hippie vibe...the acceptance of life back then.....it helps me feel good about those early years as a very young mama.....just 21 .....and so lacking in experience.  life was so good. and i am so thankful for the time in which our children were born....and raised.  we adventured and lived life......and for that i am so very thankful. so good to relive moments that make us who we are today.....to relive the threads that make up our tapestry.

Celebrating Moments

Why must celebrations be relegated to only the birthdays, the weddings, the holiday, or the other red-letter events in a year when every day should have something in it worth celebrating. What makes your heart dance? What makes you catch your breath in a surprising gasp? What is there in life that delights and surprises you? Embrace it! Love it! Celebrate it! We speak of celebrating the ordinary. The commonplace. the humdrum. The moments that tumble one after another that make up hours, then days, then years; the accumulation of moments THAT IS YOUR LIFE. Shouldn't there be something in all those ordinary moments worth celebrating? This is your life I'm speaking of....all of that sacred, splendid ordinariness. Celebrate the astonishing moments that lift your heart. Uncover joy in whatever it is that beautifully colors your seemingly ordinary days. Discover what it is that sets your soul soaring. There is Holiness hidden in the humdrum. Blessings that lurk in the exalted ennui. Find it. Celebrate it. Revel in it. Hallow it. ~words by Jennifer Clawson Farnes.....read from bella GRACE magazine.

 “Normal day, let me be aware of the treasure you are. Let me learn from you, love you, bless you before you depart. Let me not pass you by in quest of some rare and perfect tomorrow. Let me hold you while I may, for it may not always be so. One day I shall dig my nails into the earth, or bury my face in the pillow, or stretch myself taut, or raise my hands to the sky and want, more than all the world, your return.” ― Mary Jean Irion

 Not any of my words.....but words that speak to my heart.....and spur me on to celebrate.....each....and.....every.....day..... the ordinary....the humdrum...those are the moments, that for the most part make up these lives of ours....this is my goal....to celebrate these days, moments, so
 i end up with a very celebrated life.

some moments from my life recently........

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how lucky am i???? wow.

sounds of silence

Simon & Garfunkle's classic "The Sounds of Silence" performed by heavy metal band "Disturbed"Goosebump stuff man...WOW!!
Posted by Mark Watson on Friday, December 18, 2015

This showed up on my fb page today.....i can't even tell you how much i loved this....how much it filled my soul. i listened to it, maybe 10 times....and wanted to listen more.....but the day demanded attention to other things. in this life, that is short, hurried, full of too much busy.....it was just a time to listen.....to feel.....and be full.